Saturday, May 25, 2024

When Yadavji met Amit Shah

 

 

Yadavji was my driver, but at the same time much more than a driver. He was with me for more than fifteen years and was an integral part of my life.

Years ago, he had come to Delhi from Allahabad in search of a job. He was an excellent driver and never found it difficult to get a job. As we all know Delhi is the place which drives the whole country and there is always a need for good drivers.

I had some inconveniences in driving a vehicle and was searching for a good driver. Luckily, I got Yadavji. He had tried his luck in running a business and had failed. In a way we both were in search of each other. He was in his late fifties then, though he never accepted it.

Yadavji always wore safari suits and since I already knew him earlier there was no need to check his credentials. Still, during our casual chat it was a statement he made which prompted me to seek his services immediately. While having his tea he said," Sir, once I join, you will be my boss. But my first priority will be the car as for me the car is God". With that statement he gave a different dimension to his work.I was taken aback with his clarity of thought and the way he perceived  his work.

That was the beginning. He was extremely hard working and disciplined. My work demanded long hours at the office and even unpredictable travels. He never grudged and was always there at the driver's seat when I needed him. Slowly, apart from being the driver, he became a part of my life in many ways.

He had his own land, (though not big) at Allahabad and his wife was taking care of it. He had a couple of daughters and sons. Since wife was taking care of the property, he was alone at Delhi.

He found good partners for his daughters and he wanted one of his sons to help his mother in looking after the property. He brought the other son to Delhi and I gave him a job in my company. Yadavji always had longer vision, a plan to achieve it and he executed his plan meticulously.

Yadavji was generally happy and content. Only regret he had was the lack of education of his children. Later he built a small house in Delhi, got his son married and settled with them. He was overjoyed when he had a grandson.

He always reminded me of his grandson’s birthday so that I could get some good gifts for him. Yadavji had lots of hope on his grandson. He felt his sons never achieved anything much in life because they were not properly educated.

One day, he told me that after dropping me at the office he will go somewhere and will be back only by evening. Normally I never asked him where he is going. That day I casually asked and he said, " I am going to meet Amit Shah". He saw the shock and disbelief in my eyes and clarified," Yes the Home Minister". He understood that i was speechless and could not hold my curiosity anymore. So he explained.

He is seeking school admission for his grandson at Kendriya Vidyalaya. He had met local leaders and even greased their palms. Since that did not yield much result, he met Mr. Manoj Tiwary, who was the state President at that time. When that failed, he had gone and met Mr. Prakash Javedekar who was a Cabinet Minister.  Obviously, things have not moved and now he is meeting Amit Shah!!".

 " But how did you manage to meet them?", I gasped. " Till Manoj Tiwary it was easy. Then one day I went to the minister's house and gathered information's about how he will meet people like me. Then I pulled few strings. Later, I understood that Amit Shah is meeting people from UP on a particular day every week and it took me six months to get this opportunity".

Needless to say, I was stunned. I knew he was always concerned about the lack of education of his children. He did not want to make the same mistake with his grandson. He wished to give him the best. So, he had set out, deciding to leave no stone unturned.

Painstakingly, he knocked at every possible door. He worked his way through the dirty corridors of power and politics. He had the guts, confidence and audacity to meet the top person. He waited patiently for the opportunity to unfold. He never felt it is impossible. Such was his optimism.

Honestly, I would never have dared to do it. After that day my respect for Yadavji grew multifold. Since then, I have shared this story at various occasions as an example of single - mindedness, perseverance, grit and an unyielding and relentless pursuit for a larger purpose.  What I witnessed was a grandfather struggling to ensure a bright future for his next generation. Undoubtedly, he inspired me in many ways. I remembered the day he said - car is my god, and thought it is not surprising for such a person to go to any length to achieve his goal.

That day I asked him what he will do if his meeting with Amit Shah also failed. Without batting his eyelids and with terrific confidence he replied promptly, " I will meet Modiji". Friends, do we have such undying spirit in our life?

Saturday, April 6, 2024

തീദീപം

 

 

തൊടിയിലെ കരിയില

അടിച്ചു കൂട്ടി കത്തിക്കുമ്പോൾ

മൂന്നുവയസ്സുകാരി ചോദിച്ചു

" ഇത് ദീപമാണോ അമ്മേ?"

അഗ്നിയുടെ രൗദ്രഭാവം അവൾക്കറിയില്ല.

അവൾ കണ്ടത്

പൂജാമുറിയിലെ നിലവിളക്കിൻ്റെ

സൗമ്യമായ തിരി നാളം മാത്രം.

ഇവളോട് ഞാനെന്തു പറയണം?

ഇത് തീയാണെന്നോ?

അല്ല ദീപമാണന്നോ?

രണ്ടും ഒന്നാണെന്ന അദ്വൈത സാരമോ ?

ദീപത്തിൽ നിന്നും തീയും

തീയിൽ നിന്നും ദീപവുമുണ്ടാവുമെന്ന

ലളിത സത്യമോ?

അടുത്തു ചെന്നാൽ പൊള്ളുന്ന

ജീവിത യാഥാർത്ഥ്യമാണെന്നോ?

ഒടുവിലെല്ലാവരും വന്നെത്തുന്ന

വൻ ചിതയാണന്നോ?

ജീവിതത്തിൻ്റെ കടുംകയപ്പ്

കുടിച്ചിറക്കിയത്തിൻ്റെ തിക്താനുഭവത്തിൽ,

"പൊന്നുമോൾ ചെറു ദീപം

അമ്മ ആളുന്ന തീ"യെന്നു ഞാൻ

പറഞ്ഞതിൻ്റെ പൊരുൾ അവളറിയാൻ

കാലങ്ങളെത്ര ചെല്ലണം.

എങ്കിലും ജന്മാന്തരങ്ങളുടെയേതോ

വളവിൽ വെച്ച്, ജീവിതത്തിൻ്റെ

രൗദ്രസൗമ്യതകളെക്കുറിച്ചും

ഒന്നുതന്നെ മറ്റൊന്നാവുന്ന 

രസതന്ത്രത്തെക്കുറിച്ചും

അവളറിഞ്ഞതിൻ്റെയോർമകൾ

അവളുടെ കുഞ്ഞു മനസ്സിൽ 

കെടാതെ തെളിഞ്ഞിരിക്കണം.

സന്ധ്യക്ക് , നിലവിളക്കിൻ

തിരി കൊളുത്തുമ്പോൾ

ഒക്കത്തിരിന്നവൾ പറഞ്ഞു

" അമ്മേ ഇതാ തീദീപം"!!!

ചെറു ചിരിയോടെ ഞാനോർത്തു,

അറിവിൻ്റെ മഹാസാഗരത്തിലേക്ക്

അവൾ തുഴയേറ്റുകയായി

Sunday, March 31, 2024

“Water, water everywhere. Nor any drop to drink"

 

 

Some 35 years ago when we went to Mumbai on a holiday trip, father brought an animal skin water bag, which looked like a hot water bag, from one of his colleagues. It had a wheat color and we were told that it is made out of camel skin. The water bag could carry almost 2-3 liters of water and if my memory serves me right, we managed the whole journey with that water bag. Those days the drinking water provided at the stations was “drinkable” and we could refill the bag from any big station. We could hang that bag outside the train window and after a while the water will be really cold.  

I don’t remember having wasted a single drop of water during that whole journey. In other words, we filled water whenever we needed and used it to the last drop. At that age, if we were told that soon water will be sold for money and will be available in bottles, we would not have believed. What I feel is making water a commercial product changed our attitude towards it. Today, we have developed a habit of leaving the bottles behind after taking a few sips. Slowly and steadily, we are forgetting the value of water.

I thought of the above-mentioned water bag because of few things I came across recently.

Few days back I got a forwarded message in whatsaap. It was a video wherein a group of children are singing a song highlighting the importance of preserving water. In the video, the children were correcting the elders while they were wasting water urging them to develop some new habits.

Further, I came across the news of Bangalore facing huge water crisis. Most of the housing societies started regulating the use of water. There was even a fine of fifteen thousand rupees if you washed your vehicle. We may find it difficult to believe that things have reached such a situation.

Then I had the visuals of, in spite of all this water crisis, people celebrating Holi with all pomp and splendor. I am sure, while drenching themselves in gallons of water, no one might have thought of the imminent water scarcity.

And the last one, which I am certain is the most watched video recently, is about beer being served instead of water at a Bangalore wedding. That I received this message from not less than 15 people will show how much popular the video has become.

That made me think whether we are really serious about the water crises we are facing. Are we really aware of its intensity? Why are we not able to decide that we will not play Holi this year because of the scarcity of water? Do we always need an authority to force us to do that or need fine to be imposed rather than taking some sensible decisions of our own? Are we not reducing such a serious issue to trolls and whatsaap jokes by senselessly circulating few videos which may look apparently harmless?

Few days back a monkey came to our housing society giving us many sleepless nights. One day I saw the monkey opening the lid of my water tank and drinking water from it. Obviously, it came in search of water. We are told that many wild animals are leaving their habitat in search of water.

The signs all around are not at all encouraging. We all are staring at a looming disaster. I think some small amends which we can make in life will help us in a big way to face this situation in a better way. Each one of us should find out what best we can do in our personal capacity and implement it immediately in our day today life.

Sunday, March 10, 2024

എന്നിലെ വേട്ടക്കാരൻ

 


ഒരു വേട്ടക്കാരനുണ്ടെൻ്റെയുള്ളിൽ

അമ്പേറ്റ്, വെടിയേറ്റു പിടയുന്നൊരു

പ്രാവിനെ മാനിനെ കണ്ടു രസിക്കുന്ന 

അസുരൻ

പുതിയ യാത്രക്കൊരുങ്ങുമ്പോഴാണ്

സുഹൃത്തിനെ കാണാൻ ചെന്നത്

അവൻ്റെയച്ഛൻ്റെ പുതിയ തോക്ക്

കണ്ടപ്പോഴെന്നിലെ വേട്ടക്കാരനുണർന്നു.

വെടിയൊച്ച കേൾക്കാനുള്ളയെൻ്റെ

മോഹത്തിന് ഒരു പ്രാവ് പിടഞ്ഞു വീണു.

പുതുജീവിതം തേടിയുള്ളയെൻ്റെ യാത്രയ്ക്ക്

നന്മനേരാൻ ബലി പ്രാവിൻ്റെയൊടിഞ്ഞ ശിരസ്സ് 

കുരുതി ചെയ്ത ചോര തെറിച്ചത്  ഹൃദയത്തിൽ

തുളുമ്പാത്ത കണ്ണീരിലൊരിക്കലും മായാത്ത കറ .

എനിക്കു നേരേ വിരൽ ചൂണ്ടി

ഇതിനുത്തരവാദി നീയെന്നു പറഞ്ഞ

സുഹൃത്തേ നന്ദി.

നിൻ്റെ കൂർത്ത വിരൽ മുനകൾ കൊണ്ടതെൻ്റെ മുറിവിലാണ്.

ഒരിക്കലുമുണങ്ങാത്തയാ മുറിവിലൂടെയാണ് 

ഞാനെൻ്റെ ജീവിതയാത്ര തുടർന്നത്.

കരയാതിരിക്കാൻ മിഴികളെ

മാനത്തിനു നൽകിയപ്പോൾ

വേദനയിൽ പുളഞ്ഞ മാനത്തിൻ്റെ

മാറിൽ നിന്നും ഉദകക്രിയ പോലെ മഴ.

എൻ്റെ യാത്രയ്ക്ക് പാഥേയമായി, ഒരിക്കലും

തോരാ കണ്ണീർ നനവുമായി,

അന്ത്യനിമിഷത്തിൻ്റെ ദൈന്യമായ പിടച്ചിൽ.

എൻ്റെ യാത്രയുടെയാഘോഷമായി

അയൽ വീട്ടിൽ പ്രാവിറച്ചി കൊണ്ട് സദ്യ.

പ്രാവിൻ്റെ, ഞാൻ കാണാത്ത കണ്ണിൽ

മരണത്തെ നേരിൽ കണ്ട ഭയം

സുഹൃത്തേ,

ജീവൻ വെടിഞ്ഞ നിമിഷത്തിൽ

കരൾ പിളർന്നെന്തെങ്കിലുമതു പറഞ്ഞെങ്കിൽ

അതെന്നോട് പറയാതിരിക്കുക

യാത്രയിൽ, ഓർമയായ്, ശാപമായ്

ഞാൻ പേറാ,മടയാത്ത കണ്ണുകളിലെ

ആ അവസാനയപേക്ഷ

ക്രൂരമായയോർമയായ് നിറഞ്ഞതെന്നെയെത്ര

പീഡിപ്പിച്ചു.

അടയാത്ത കണ്ണുമായെൻ്റെ

ഉറക്കത്തിലുമുണർവിലും 

നിറഞ്ഞെത്ര സ്വാസ്ഥ്യം കെടുത്തി.

എന്നിട്ടും,

ഉണർന്നിരിക്കുന്നതെന്തേയെന്നിലെ

വേട്ടക്കാരനിപ്പോഴും?

അങ്ങകലെ മലയിലും, മരുഭൂവിലും

സഹജീവികൾ വെടിയേറ്റ് വീഴുമ്പോഴും

ഇരിപ്പതെങ്ങിനെയെന്നുള്ളിലെ

അസുരൻ അനാകുലം?

എന്നിലെ വേട്ടക്കാരനെടുത്ത

ജീവന് ശ്രാദ്ധമൂട്ടാൻ

കണ്ണീരു കൊണ്ട് ഉദകക്രിയ ചെയ്യാൻ

ഉള്ളിലെ കറയെല്ലാമൊഴിഞ്ഞ്

തനി മനുഷ്യനായ് തീരാൻ

ഇനിയെത്ര പരിണാമങ്ങൾ താണ്ടണം?

Saturday, February 10, 2024

രണ്ടു കവിതകൾ

 വലിച്ചെറിഞ്ഞ ചോദ്യങ്ങൾ


രണ്ടു വയസ്സുകാരിക്കൊപ്പം

പറമ്പിലൂടെ നടക്കുമ്പോൾ

അവളെന്തോ കുനിഞ്ഞെടുത്തു.

" ഇതെന്താ?"

ജിജ്ഞാസയുണർന്ന മനസ്സിലെ 

അറിവിൻ്റെ ശേഖരത്തിലേക്ക് മറ്റൊരു

ധാന്യമണി ചേർത്തുവെക്കാൻ

അവൾ ചോദിച്ചു.

' മെച്ചിങ്ങ' , എൻ്റെ നാവിൽ വന്നത് വെറും പേര്

പിന്നെ സംശയമായി,

മെച്ചിങ്ങയാണോ, മൊച്ചിങ്ങയാണോ അതോ ....

ഇവൾ ചോദിച്ചതതിൻ്റെ പേരാണോ?

അതോ അതിനപ്പുറത്തെ പൊരുളോ?

ഒരു കുഞ്ഞു ചോദ്യത്തിനു പോലും

എന്താഴം, പരപ്പ്!!

ഇവൾക്കു ഞാനെന്തുത്തരം  നൽകണം?

ഇതു കായ,യിതു വളർന്ന് ഫലമാകുമെന്നോ?

ഫലമാകുന്നതിന് മുമ്പ് കൊഴിഞ്ഞതാണെന്നോ?

ഒരു വസ്ത്രമുപേക്ഷിച്ച് 

മറ്റൊന്ന് ധരിക്കാൻ ഒരുങ്ങുകയാണെന്നോ?

അതോ, ചോദ്യങ്ങളിൽ നിന്നുമവളെ

അകറ്റി,യിതു കൊണ്ടൊരു കളിപ്പാട -

മൊരുക്കി കൊടുത്താൽ മതിയോ?

ചോദിക്കാൻ ഭയന്ന, മറന്ന

 ഒരിക്കലും ഉത്തരം കിട്ടാത്തയനേകം ചോദ്യങ്ങൾ

മനസ്സിൽ തികട്ടി വന്നു.

രണ്ടു വയസ്സുകാരിയുടെ ചോദ്യത്തിന്

ഉത്തരം നൽകാനാവാത്ത വിഹ്വലയിൽ

തിരിഞ്ഞു നോക്കുമ്പോൾ കണ്ടു

വഴിവക്കിൽ,

വലിച്ചെറിഞ്ഞ ചോദ്യങ്ങൾക്കിടയിൽ

ആ മൊച്ചിങ്ങ(?)




വിരുന്ന് മുറിയിലെ സാഗരം


പിറന്നാളിന് വാങ്ങി കൊടുത്തതാണ്

അവനീ അക്വേറിയം

എനിക്കത്, രണ്ടാഴ്ച കൂടുമ്പോൾ

വൃത്തിയാക്കേണ്ടയൊരു അമിതാദ്ധ്വാനം

അവൾക്ക്, എല്ലാം കണിശമായി-

യൊരുക്കിവെച്ച വിരുന്നു മുറിയിലെ ഒരഭംഗി.

അവനോ,

സ്വർണമത്സ്യങ്ങളും, ഏഞ്ചലും

പവിഴപ്പുറ്റും, പൂഴി പരപ്പും

വലമ്പിരിശംഖും, നീലിമയും

അറിയാത്താഴങ്ങളും

കണ്ണെത്താപ്പരപ്പുമുള്ള

ഒന്നിലുമൊതുങ്ങാത്ത

മഹാത്ഭുതങ്ങളെ ഉള്ളിലുറക്കുന്ന

ഒരു മഹാസാഗരം.

Saturday, January 20, 2024

The prasad we shared

 


Last month, I along with my son, brother, sister-in- law and their daughter visited one of the most worshipped ( I was really confused what word to use while describing this temple.’ Famous, well known’ etc looked out of place. ‘A holy place’ sounded hollow. Then I settled with ‘the most worshipped’) temples in India.

One good thing about such temples is that you can have easy access to God if you are willing to pay a price for that. All those temples have privilege queues. The more you pay, the quicker you reach God. You can also enjoy this privilege if you are a celebrity or a politician.

There was not much of a crowd so we stood in the normal queue.  My brother knew I am not a great believer of God or temples and have the tendency to find fault with even the smallest thing around. I always felt god, who should have been a relief to the masses, was misused for commercial and political reasons. According to him, even if I am an atheist,just visiting the temple will fill me with blessings.

Our queue moved pretty fast. As we approached the sanctum sanctorum, I saw those lines meant for the richer guys. As we moved forward, I saw a rich family coming through the special line. Their confidence, bordered around arrogance, showed how privileged they are, even before a god.

The lady of the family was holding a huge and expensive tray full of ladoos, their offering to the lord. She had difficulty in carrying it. As she was struggling to keep the balance, one ladoo fell down. The atheist in me became focused and wanted to know how she will respond to this unexpected god’s lila. She was flustered for a second and then, unhesitantly, she picked the ladoo and put it back in the tray. I was aghast. Even a non- believer like me knows that an offering falling off the tray was a bad omen. Further, you are not supposed to offer something to God which had fallen on to the ground. But she was cock sure. She must have thought that, God being busy blessing everyone, might not have seen this small incident. Or is it the privilege which gave her that supreme confidence.

My brother understood that I had seen the incident and was eagerly waiting for my sharp comments. But I decided to take it easy. Being in the purified vicinity of God, how does it matter that a small ladoo had fallen down? The moment god touches, even the most defiled object will become prasad. I thought why should I bother about such irrelevant things and diverted my attention to the glittering splendor of God’s abode.

After taking the blessings, as we were coming out, we saw the family standing near the exit door and distributing the Prasad to everyone. I was in double mind to take it. Before I could respond, the lady stuffed a ladoo into my hands.

I was unsure what to do with the ladoo. My brother had a big smile and said, " that is the same ladoo which fell down. God is giving you a message. Now you eat it."

Even I was confused. Can there be any truth in what he says? Can it be the god’s way of teaching me a lesson? Can God really give such instant punishments? Then why is he hesitant in giving instant rewards too? I shrugged off those thoughts and was sharpening my arguments based on probability and serendipity. Just then, the sister- in - law came and took a piece of Prasad from my ladoo and ate. She gave another piece to my brother and her daughter. My son followed them. Then she announced," let us share this ladoo now and keep all other prasad’s with us so that we can have it later".

The sceptic in me could not prevent myself from telling them the story of the fallen ladoo and the possibility of the prasad we ate being that ladoo.  I saw their faces getting clouded with fear and anxiety. Things related to God can evoke more fear than peace in you.

I secretly glanced at my brother. He was swallowing the Prasad with great difficulty.

One thought still haunts me- were they punished because of my wrong deeds, or was I blessed because of their good deeds?

 

(That I wrote this blog just a day before the Ram Mandir sham is not coincidental)

Sunday, December 31, 2023

New year thoughts

 

 

New Year

Tomorrow we will change the calendar. The number of months, weeks and days will remain the same. So, what will be different? Let us make some changes by:

Making:

Monday into WON the day

Tuesday to AMUSEDAY

Wednesday to WELLNESS  day

Thursday to THIRST( for anything) day

Friday to FREE day

Saturday to MASTER the day

Sunday to a SUNNY day.

 

Books

This year again I could read 150 books. Some of them were amazing, some average and some bad.  Will start 2024 with Jon Fosse, who got this year's Nobel Prize for literature, and Paul Lynch who got the Booker Prize. Few good books can illuminate your whole year. So, I wish all of you could read at least a few meaningful books this year.

 

The lame dog

In our housing society there is a lady who is paralyzed from waist down. Still, she drives a four-wheel scooter and manages most of the things on a wheel chair and I have always found her cheerful. She and her husband have a dog, who has only three legs. They take the dog out thrice a day. Either her husband will take it or she will take it in her scooter. If the husband is taking it, the dog will limp on its three legs, but with full of energy and enthusiasm.

 What really caught my attention is, there are two stray dogs in the society who will be waiting for this dog to come out every day. Generally, the guards won't allow stray dogs in our society. But these two dogs are always allowed. These two dogs will be waiting outside for the other dog to come out. The moment it is out they will rush towards it and for many minutes there is a display of pure love among them. They will cuddle, hug, rub each other's body, wag their tails and do whatever they could to show how concerned they are with that lame dog. The owner will allow them to carry on for a few minutes. The stray dogs will accompany the dog till the gate. Once the lame dog is outside the gate, both the dogs will come back and wait near the flat again. At every sound they will get up and confirm whether their friend is back or not. They will be eagerly waiting for the lame dog to come back. The moment they see him from afar, they will rush and it is time for another round of displaying love and affection.

 I always wonder what makes them bond so closely and what can be the reason for such intense love. In fact, it is contagious because after watching it for a few minutes I also feel happy and positive for the whole day. In those few minutes, I feel, they elevate happiness to ecstasy or rather blissfulness. I wish the new year will bring in such blissful moments to everyone’s life.

 

Hospital

Last week my son got admitted in hospital at Delhi due to some infection. We all know, today hospitals look more like five-star hotels. This one was not different.

The couple of days we stayed there gave us sour experience. The nurses were courteous and obliging. But I felt it was more out of training than their natural self. I was not expecting a ' Lady with a lamp'. However, that warmth was missing.

They have almost all equipment’s which could help doctors to get their diagnosis easy. Still, they were struggling to get to the real cause of his disease and in the process ended up doing so many tests.

I met two types of doctors there. We were sharing the room with another patient and his doctor always came early in the morning, wished him a good morning, explained the situation, clearly described his course of action, and while being strict on many aspects, gave a lot of comfort to the patient. On the other hand, our doctor was irregular, incoherent, inarticulate and looked confused many times.  With all due respect to the doctors, it felt he was more focused on the commercial part than the treatment as such.

 In short, the couple of days stay was not comfortable for any of us. We know hospitals need a lot of money to maintain their infrastructure and provide all facilities. But that should not make them consider every patient as a source of income. I fear, in the age of artificial intelligence, the processes are becoming more artificial. The warmth was really missing. Hospital should not be a place for treatment alone. It should provide comfort and confidence to every patient who walks in. I really wish that they bring in a bit more of humane and natural elements into their purely commercial minded systems.